jgn la ego sgt wahai hati~

btol tuh~~
jgn ego sgt..
nape susah sgt nk luahkn ape yg terbuku dlm hati ni??
sumenye nk simpan sorg2 ke??
pastu nangis sorg2 lg??
jerit2 plok bantal lg??
ooo..sunggoh x indah hidupku..

bkn xmo share dgn sesape..

cuma rase mcm x perlu..

masih bleh berthn sorg2...

atau mebi mmg ego kot..

xmo nmpk lemah kt mata org la kononnye..

tp hakikatnye mmg lemah..

full with tears..

tp xde la slalu sgt nangis kot..

mmg la x slalu nangis..

tp sape yg nangis tgk muvee smlm??

tu pun perlu nangis ke??

nmpk sgt dh lama x nangis kn??

slama ni asek gelak mengekek2 je..

skrg dh mula sesi utk bersedih..

klu xnk luah kt sesape..

kuatkn la hati tu..

tp better luah kot..

xde sape mrh..

mmg la xde sape mrh..

tp..

sure xde sape yg nk jd pendengar pd luahan bodo ni..

sbb sumenye mistakes sndiri..

so mcm xyah la amik masa org..

i can heal it...

time will definitely helps me...

so u dont hv 2 b worried ya..

since i can handle this...

i will do things that i want..

n when i want it...

so chill~

haih..terpulang la..

tp tau je mmg nk luah kt seseorg kn??

lg 1..

rasenye mcm better kurgkn dgr lagu yg slow n sedih2..

sbb tu akan mengganggu emosi..

biarla emosi tu stabil dlu..

jgn ditekan dgn lagu2 cmtu lg..

minum air sikit sgt..

tp nangis byk2..

nnt dehydrate..

leh pengsan tau!!

x takot ke??

haha!

takot ma!!

tp xpe la..

i'll try to follow d suggestion ya...

tggu n lihat je.

mebi ni masa utk kuarkn air mata...

bila dh tamat masa tu..

im juz gonna b fine as usual~

and im serio_s..

different than d other nite..

bcoz dis is 4 in d morning..

even hv another shine of light..

but still d lonelinessss is there..

so lonely~

*sigh*
can i say 'come back' to u??

is it an appropriate word for this??

damn missing...

SERIO_SLY needs U..

KL waktu mlm..

gelap je..

dr tmpt sy la..

xtau la klu dr tmpt awk..

atau tmpt kamu..

atau tmpt dia..

sunyi sgt..

tatau nape..

bersalah ke?

im doing wut i shud do kot..

tu pun nk rase guilty??

i shud b happy by now..

mebi sbb..

ur not around kot..

ur not with me today..

entertain me..

laugh with me..

missing me as how i miss u..

but anyway n anyhow..

i know ur there..

may or not be thinking of me all d time..

as i also cant think of u full time..

im still a part-timer..

but..

im happy to feel that..

so funny..

since deep down..

im so happy..

aihh..

ive been waited by 5 of them..

to face them..

so rite now..

i cant face u..

seriously cant..

im so sorry..

coz i have them..

still having them..

and cant let them go yet..

not now..

but sooner i will..

to be with u..

mm..im sorry..

but i miss u..

i miss us..

i miss..

wut i did is my fault..clearly kowt~

Assalamualaikum..

post for today

representing yesterday's

haha

wut a day i called it as

since its not even a day

its seriously a war

seeing my frenz faces in d hall

holding up their pens

and looking up to d ceiling

like there's gonna b answers up there

with empty eyes

(shud i say empty mind oso??huhu)

some of them might b able 2 write things smoothly

others??

craving for anything that can help in building a sentence even!

how crucial dat time..

funny?? yeah NO!!

but now YESS!!

missing that paper so much since..

can i say it's easy??

(it's gonna b really easy if i ate d book okke!haha)

though it cause me fever

not only me kowt~

so for others who's having fever like me

plz stay under control

coz we have lots n lost of papers

to be filled~

how i LurVe dat part

from empty papers turn into some kind of art pieces

with my ugly handwritings on it

wawawa~

(laughing wit tears)

ok2

guess im done for now

since my headache is getting worse

oo btw

specially to a person out there (WLM owner)

plz dont ruin my day ya

im so dont like it..

ahaha

Salam.

exam Patho yg hebat~

Assalamualaikum..

ade yg kuar dr hall terkinja2 mcm beruk pak yeh x dpt pisang (referring to dewi), ade yg kuar dgn muka tenang (referring to nana), ade yg kuar wat muka poyo bajet dpt jwb soalan (referring to me??).haha! tp yg penting, sume org kata exam susah. hanya result yg akn kuar nnt je bleh tentukn susah ke x exam arini. haih..doa..doa..doa..mau cin cin ni..(sgt x ikhlas jwb exam ke sy ni??)

lusa ade paper farmakologi lak. best tau bila komen2 arini psl paper then bila paper tu dh lpas, bace balik bebelan ni. sbb mcm x caye dgn ape yg dah sy bebelkan. its a nice feeling, stupid pun ade gak.but any how,dats me. nk blagak pndai tu xleh la kn sbb mmg ilmu d dada ni x cukup lg. harapan? jgn la ade paper yg sangkut! huhu..i want 2 pass!! definitely with flying colours!!!

ok la.membebel pjg2 sdgkn spatutnye g msk nih.bomba pun dh redi kt sblh utk pdmkn api yg blom pun sempat sy nyalakan.wek2..ok allz..adios!!

salam.

the WAR is about to begin!!!

Assalamualaikum allz~

arini ialah hari terakhir utk ber'relax2' sebab esok dah mula exam. tau x ape tu exam?? xtau eh?? xpe2. sy membebel arini bkn utk terangkn kt korg ttg exam ataupun menyedarkn sy sape exam tu sbnrnye. tetapi adalah lebih kepada utk melatih tgn sy utk buat karangan, khas utk blog yg terchenta ini. sbnrnye kn sy ade 7 papers yg menanti bermula esok. so wish me luck with it. luck je x cukup kot. sy sendiri kena minta pd Allah utk berikan yg terbaik pd sy. hmm..ckp psl beri yg terbaik, sy rase kn..byk btul benda yg terbaik yg Allah dh bg kt sy selama sy idup ni. cuma mcm biasa la kn, sy x bape reti nk menghargainye. sungguh alpa sy ni..

nk tau x, smbil2 sy menaip ni kn, mate sy melirik ke kiri n kanan lappy sy n ape yg kelihatan ialah timbunan nota2 yg sy dah susun mengikut subjek2 exam yg sy akan tempuhi. scary dowh!! sbb byk gile. sy kn bkn xnk berjaye tau tp sy perlukn sesuatu utk trigger rase rajin yg mmg je byk dlm bdn sy ni. ye la. adrenalin sy x moving pun. sy tau, once exam dah start nnt, br la tekanan tu akn mula terasa tp..too late la kot. even skrg ni pun dh kata quite late kn.. kesedaran yg di hujung tanduk. haih..(terdengar keluhan disitu)

btw sy saje je la kn nk upload pic kt jengka aritu. tp ni yg bersama dgn *HOT GUY* yg digilai ramai kerana dia muda n dia mampu utk wat 'Australian Walk' dr menara berketinggian 3 tingkat. btw its a nice experience utk turun dr menara 3 tingkat using 3 techniques : normal repelling & spider repelling. pergh!! mmg ada uummphh!~

sbnrnye kn sy ni xde la tggi sgt. saje jengketkn kaki supaya mamat tu x terase mcm dia center of attention! haha..agak dengki disitu. tp kn, dia ni la mamat yg kasi WAKENABEB kt sy pd mlm persembahan. dah la baju kitorg same kaler. skali dia wat show yg mmg sy x la malu sgt cuma jd kenangan terindah di lubuk buaya je la.hahaha~ maaf encek.. mmg encek punye show tu sgt bikin panas ya.. ohh sy kn, br sedar sumthing. ape ye? nape kat kem mcm tu sy bleh pegang pen?? sy pun x phm. pstu tutup pen tu lak bleh hilang. so mmg kompom2 la kn sy pegang je pen tu x lepas2 smpikn nk posing pun include pen tu.wahaha.. pstu kn sunburn kemain lg!! sy x suke!! sunburn pun x suke sy!! tp nape sy kena?? sbb sy x pkai sunblock la kan.. bleh plak kawad di terik tengahari tanpa sebarang perlindungan..??? bajet terer la tu?? so skrg sy dlm proses pemulihan.. aih.. sgt leceh woo.. dah la muka pedih2.. nnt nk g dinner lg.. plz no.. ~_~ agak sayu disitu.. isk2..

ohh..spatutnye kan sy study ba skrg ni kn?? xpela..cukup la kot smpi kt cni. mebi ade je benda yg sy lupa nk mention kali ni tp xpe. lenkali ade lg kn. btw, if korg (yg membaca blog sy ni) free, sila la lawat blog my everdearest fren, Mr Bujukz kat http://riedzxgreatestthings.blogspot.com n bace post ttg 10 nasihat utk org bercinta. bkn ape... utk renungan bersama.. wlupun sy sgt in LurVe dgn org itu~~

bah..tata..
Salam

wut am i doing??

Assalamualaikum..

arini ahad, 11/10/09. hari yg mmg je sy suke. sbb sy mls nk g memane. sy kn pemalas. sbnrnye sy agak tertekan asek dok umah je. wlupun hakikatnye klu weekdays tu x dok umah sgt sbb g klas. tu yg lg tertekan kot. rase mcm otak dah tepu. xleh absorb pape lg. tp tu sume x benarrr... sy tau sy blom pkai pun otak sy ni. mane bleh tepu. makin sy relax, makin otak sy mengecut. korg tau x psl otak yg pandai mengecut tu? sy pun xtau la sejauh mana kesahihannye sbb sy men ckp je. hihi~

so far, ni masih bulan raye. mood raye? xde sgt dah kot. skrg ni mood nk exam. haha.semak2. tp apakan daya. itu tanggungjawab sy. mak ayah dah amanahkan sy utk blaja. xkisah la ape mslh sy pun, sy kena tunaikn tggjwb tu. makin lama makin parah pengurusan masa sy ni tau. tah ape2 sy buat, sy pun tatau. tp masa makin cpt berlalu.br mkn nasi, dah amik masa stgh jam. gile ke?? x ah. jam x rosak. tp hakikatnye ialah sy mkn dgn lambatnye mcm gary, siput spongebob. hadeii..nk suh mkn cpt skit tu bkn xleh tp sbb byk benda yg sy pk so proses pengunyahan mknn tu jd lembab.

apapepun, sy rase mcm nk g bercuti. utk sesape yg rase mcm ade cdgn ttg tmpt percutian yg agak bleh menenangkn fikiran disamping bleh berseronok, bgtau la ye. bcoz i need 1!! weekend ni g camping JPA3 kat jengka, phg. rite after balik dr camping tu, esoknye akan ade exam. haha. adakah itu 1 mslh?? spatutnye x la kan. sbb dah terlalu byk masa yg diperuntukkn pd sy utk study. it's all depends on me on how to manage my time yg mmg ketara sgt sy x reti manage masa n sy sgt x ikut jadual. sbb ape?? sbb sy pemalas!! bkn pemalas yg amatur tp pemalas thp profesional~ adakah itu sesuatu yg bleh dibanggakan?? mestila x kn!! xdenye nk letak dlm resume tau. haha.

maafla. sy terasa mcm nk membebel je. lapar la plak. rase mcm nk mengunyah lak. pstu dh mkn, nantok, tdo. ahh..1 aktiviti yg kurang sihat, yg melemahkn otak dan menyebabkan tahap kemalasan meningkat! tp tetap x dpt naikkn berat bdn sy. sy sgt cepat ilang selera mkn. nape ye?? mungkin sbb sy sdg menyusukan anak kot. ahaha~ susukan anak ye?? anak ape?? anak mata?? anak tekak?? x la..anakonda. wek2.. adoi..tahap kemerapuan semakin meningkat!!

time to go off. sbb klu x off, lg byk merapu ni. nk post gmbr bleh x?? gmbr ape ye?? xde la. x jd! haha..bye~

salam.